Some Sunday Inspiration

For anyone who celebrates Easter, happy Easter!

For anyone who doesn't, happy Sunday!

I hope everyone is having a fantastic day. 

Have you ever visited the website called DeviantArt?

It's awesome.

Artists can display their work online and it can be commented on, critiqued, and liked. People can buy and sell artwork and it's just a really great place. I mainly use it for displaying my own work and finding inspiration from other people's art. 

And so this post is dedicated to one of the artists whose work i adore. 

Here's a gallery of her work!

I find her work incredibly inspiring and interesting and just all around amazing. 

So please, take a gander and let it all soak in.

Song of the Moment

I've been listening to this nonstop for the past few days.

It's just one of those songs that makes you want to drive fast and with the windows down. 

Or spin around your room while only wearing a shirt and underwear.

Or just sit at a desk and reflect upon your life for a bit.

"So here I am." 

Small Fish

Today was disappointing.

I knew this realization would come, I just didn’t want to see it and embrace it. I wanted to keep it as far away as possible.

I’m no longer a big fish in a small pond.

I’m an art kid. And in high school, I was one of the few main art kids. I would spend my lunch hour up in the art room. At the end of my senior year, i got the award for “Excellence in Art” and the school bought one of my paintings to hang in a hall. Everyone knew me as the artistic one, and that’s how I knew myself, too. I had worked up to that status.

I was a big fish in a small pond.

Now in college, I’m in art classes with people better than I am. I look at what I’m doing, think it’s pretty good, and then look over at the person next to me and see that my piece looks like an elephant sneezed on it, while theirs looks like a masterpiece and might as well be framed and sold for thousands of dollars. 

I’m no longer known as one of the best at what I do given the selection of people.

I’m just “kind of okay”.

I’m back to being just a small fish in a big pond. 

I’m not used to it, and it makes me really sad.

Have you ever gone through this same kind of thing? How did you deal?

Photos

Just some pictures I’ve found on the internet that make me smile.

I don’t own any of these photos and if by some chance you see this blog and one of your photos is on here, shoot me a comment and I’ll credit you for your work!

LOOK AT THIS DRESS. I'd love to see someone actually wearing it. I am in awe by how stunning it is.

This picture is just so peaceful. I love how it can portray quiet, raw love between people. 

Yay rainbow feathers!

This just makes me laugh whenever I look at it. Dogs are wonderful.

Jumping lambs are wonderful, too.

Love the colors and the focus.

An example of someone's really great Photoshopping skills. 

Hammer, represent.

Again, love the focus.

Yet another example of how wonderful dogs are. This is just precious.

Have a great Thursday! 

You've almost reached the weekend.

Lessons Learned in College

Since the school year’s almost over, I’ve been thinking a lot about how much things have changed from the beginning of the year to now. Being a freshman in college is a roller coaster. But out of all the things I’ve learned, there are two lessons that, to me, are most prominent and have taught me the most. 

1. Don't drink to get people to like you.

Partying taught me a lot about myself and about other people. My roommate is an avid “partygirl”, and she insists that she’s made so many friends at parties. I’m fine with her choices, her life is her life. But I can’t help thinking, is she making real friends? She’s meeting people while she’s drunk and when they’re drunk. They usually remember each other, but can she really consider them “friends”? If she needs help, will they help her, while sober? Can she go to them when she needs to talk about things that are troubling her? Not that I can see.

You need a support system at school, especially as a freshman in college. To me, party friends aren’t the same as supporting friends.  

2. You will eventually turn back into the person you are.

Yep, when I came to college, I started growing a tail, some fur and kept barking at people. But now I’m back to human form, no worries.

Bad joke, my bad.

But this lesson is the biggest one for me.

First semester, I thought that I was living the life of a college student. Going out every weekend, thinking drinking was great, making friends with people that I really didn’t like but tolerated because I thought that’s what everyone did. I also didn't take the time to realize how homesick I was because I didn't want to be the baby who missed her mommy. But once we went home for winter break, everything changed. My life had been going going going since school started and it finally all caught up to me. I realized that the person I was being wasn’t who I wanted to be. I wasn’t, had never been, and didn’t want to be a partygirl and I didn’t enjoy the company of other partygirls. So second semester, I came back to school with my sketchbook and with my collection of good literature. I talk to my mom every day and I'll admit that I am sometimes so homesick that I'm brought to tears. I’ve only gone out about three times in the past three months and I’ve become closer to the people that stay in on weekends and get good grades, i.e. the mature kinds of people that I’ve been drawn to my entire life.

And now everything finally seems to be in place. 

You will get back on track.