Rough

Today was rough.

There’s a lot on my mind and there’s a lot going on.

I need to find a job. Now.

My dad was crying today.

I haven’t done any of my spring break homework. Now I need to crank out SuperLiz to get it all done.

My depressed ex boyfriend was telling me how he feels about life.

I found out the guy I’ve been trying not to be attracted to was talking about wanting to talk to me.

My mom’s sad and cries because she’s trying to better an old woman’s life and people don’t cooperate.

Whenever I’m sad or angry, I visibly show it. I shut people out and don’t smile, etc. 

Therefore, I’m trying something new; a “smile even though your heart is breaking” kind of thing. If I’m down, nobody needs to know unless I tell them. Passerby will just believe I'm happy as a clam. I have to try and stay happy and optimistic on the outside. 

And in turn, hopefully that’ll tweak the way I’m feeling on the inside as well. Which is always a good thing.

I want to be seen as Liz the happy or Liz the cheerful. Not Liz the moody, scary, creep.

I need to go out and take pictures tomorrow.

To relax and such.

What do you do to relax? To take your mind off of everything? I'd love some suggestions.

And until then, here's a picture. I'm imagining myself here right now.

I took this on our last trip to Ohio. I think it's very calming.